I can understand how difficult it is because when we interplay between faith and fear is something we should ponder is like how much of a difference does faith and fear provide us biologically speaking our brains release the same serotonin which is released during when we are under fear of circumstances and when we want to keep faith or want to get excited. So it's again about how you process your thoughts and how you walk through the path thinking what you want to achieve and work harder to achieve it