@Bendi_G
Benedict Garrett
@Bendi_G · 3:52

Tired of caring?

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I don't know if this is what swell is for, but if anything, it's about being human. And I'm just coming on to talk about how I'm feeling at the moment and and just sharing those feelings and those thoughts with you because sharing is carrying because it's important to share sometimes and just to see what other people feel and other people have been in similar places and how you deal with it. I'm just tired of being human sometimes

I feel alone. And I need to talk to somebody. The strength of Swell is our ability to share our thoughts & emotions. And to talk. And to listen.

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@SeekingPlumb

@Bendi_G

No need to do or say that you're amazing just the way that you are. I just want to say thank you for sharing this. For sharing being human. If I could send you a big hug, I would. But just imagine that kitchen table that we're sharing that space just big. And you thought about
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@lwatsonjr
Lance Watson
@lwatsonjr · 4:37

@Bendi_G:…you’re not alone.

NBG. Wow. You know, for as much as you and I have interacted on Swell, as Audite is, I have been on post. And we've replied, we've had neighborly banter about a number of subjects. This one hits home for me think that I can really sort of extend to you as a friend of sorts, a neighbor of sorts in this f****** app is presence. It's the dead air in between my remarks
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@Wordsmith
Sreeja V
@Wordsmith · 1:31

@Bendi_G

It is a mission that has to be accomplished by ourselves and our soul at the end of the day. And I think it is wonderful that you keep remembering the purpose that you are here for by contributing to others lives in whatever way you can, by doing your best and trying to live life to the fullest in every way possible. I think there are times when one gets overwhelmed because after all, we are human, so we do get overwhelmed. There are these patches, but this two swell pass
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@gaurangikaushik

@Bendi_G

And you are not alone, by the way. You have lots of people listening to you, being there for you. So it's okay. It's hard to be human. That's why we have got this life of a human. It's hard to be human. But do not give up, never kiss, try and keep going. You will need a break, you will need rest, but you will always keep going because it's our human nature. So much love to you
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@Ramya
Ramya V
@Ramya · 2:41
Hi, Benedict. It takes a lot to open up your heart and bring your emotions out of the shadows in the kind of way that you have done and openly address. The pervasiveness is of feeling lost and alone. Sometimes I think, through this swell of yours reminded us what we are all really actually here for
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@Bendi_G
Benedict Garrett
@Bendi_G · 4:28

@SeekingPlumb

And I just also want some people to know it's okay to be particularly some men who just and, you know, I've done swells about men who cry. And of course, I'm still a man. And I still sometimes feel like I still have this in thought in the back of my mind that I have to fight with it, that, you're such a weak man, you're so pathetic. Why are you doing this?
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@Bendi_G
Benedict Garrett
@Bendi_G · 3:28

@lwatsonjr

I appreciate you and I appreciate your words, and I appreciate you taking the time to speak to me and hopefully, in turn, speak to others as well, who listen to what you have to say. As I said in previous response to somebody else, to Christina, I did think twice about posting this. There was part of me in the back of my head where I thought, is this just attention seeking? Are people just going to think, oh, he's just seeking attention
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@lwatsonjr
Lance Watson
@lwatsonjr · 4:57

@Bendi_G: mask off, melancholy magic…

Hey, Benji. This is Rev. LJ. Again. I wanted to thank you for just the very solemn reminder that in my context and my vocation. There is a very appealing. Obscure a line between and a blurring of the line between the boundaries that we can superficially set up between what is personal and professional and that in the vocation that I have chosen for my life. Which is this ministerial context. I visit this space that you have described in your Swell Cast post and that you shared
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@Bendi_G
Benedict Garrett
@Bendi_G · 2:39

@Wordsmith

But along the journey, there are people who can lend us a helping hand, be there to prop us up and support us. But ultimately, the decisions, the actions, the behaviors, the choices we make have to be done by ourselves. And nobody can do those things for us. Both a daunting thing, but it's also a wonderful, liberating thing. As Swell, we are all autonomous beings who at least we should be
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@Bendi_G
Benedict Garrett
@Bendi_G · 1:19

@gaurangikaushik

I think I do need maybe a bit of a break, a bit of a pause and just time to relax, reevaluate, refocus. Thank you. As I'm saying to everybody, thank you for being there and for your contribution. It genuinely means a lot to have people like you who are firstly listening. And I know there's obviously a lot more people who listen and contribute, and that's fine
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@Bendi_G
Benedict Garrett
@Bendi_G · 2:51

@Ramya

The reason that the home was created hasn't been accepted, hasn't been reciprocated, hasn't been stuck to. And so it's never really felt like the home that I was trying to create here. And so it doesn't feel like my home. It just feels a fairly cold, soulless, emotionless place where I spend too much time thinking and overthinking and not just enjoying being in a home with people who I love and care about
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@gaurangikaushik

@Bendi_G

So you are coming out, sharing, expressing you should thank yourself and always in life we do not need the advice givers we need listeners so you have listeners, so don't worry everything think we'll be all right
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@Habkhan26
Habeeb Khan
@Habkhan26 · 2:18
Because nowadays social media is all about laughter and smiles and those happy moments, best moments. Nobody talks about their down moments, their hardships, those difficult times, or when they are upset, their agonies. But you have the courage, you have the balls to just speak about it and be vulnerable. And I'm really glad that you did
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@sophie_world
Sophie Sophia
@sophie_world · 1:32

@Bendi_G

Don't worry. I will say that it's a lance and it's okay to be tired, it's okay to be human, it's okay to be angry. It's okay to be exhausted. So you do whatever your heart says and just be there. And mark my words, it's just a lance. And all of us are here. We share ourselves. That is why we are replying to the swell or initiating new swell
@Michael_Vishal_

Tired of Caring

At some point you may be right. But you know that life is not about giving up. Life means giving it a second chance. So you must be be patient and have faith in yourself. Because when no one believes in you, you must believe in yourself. And you said that you are tired of caring. Everyone is tired of caring. No one in this world is not tired of anything or any sort of that. But yeah, it might happen
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