I'm sad that as I said before, that what I'm going through has affected him. Negatively. Especially today. On a day that we are supposed to be celebrating him. What a bummer
Zara Lisbon
@ZLisbon · 4:59
But he might be feeling extra sensitive in an extra vulnerable place because of his birthday and therefore was extra susceptible to your depression and anxiety attack that you had last night. But yeah, I f****** relate to this. I struggle a lot with depression. I struggle a lot with anxiety. My husband doing much better, and now it's back
Just that the situation made him sad that I got to that low of a point and then that he was unable to really help me overcome it. And that upset him. Man, it's just clinical. Severe depression is any kind of mental illness is just a real monster. And I feel like I almost feel like mental illness is morphing these days into something stronger and bigger than it used to be. I don't know, maybe it's just because people are talking about it more
But I'm not now, and I feel guilty every day. Our days, I wouldn't trade my children for the world. They are my joy. But there are days when it gets bad and I can't help but ask myself, did I do them a disservice? Should I have had children? And that sucks. It sucks to have to wonder that