Like, I already had to accept the fact that my dad died, but it's just like, wow, losing my mom is just now I'm still swallowing that. I'm still processing. So I'm just taking my time in this world as I do that. But even like I can be really affected by that at different times. Like I say, even just walking outside to my car, I should just feel like, yeah, okay, yeah, I can sit in this car