But I don't want to give up because the distance from him to me will become more. I will feel that I am stranded aloof. I don't want to do that. I want to be closer to him. So he's my sahyapa. And the teachings and the experience that Jayawai has written here is really, really marvelous and worth reading it because she has written about many people's experience here. Not only hers, but others who have told us the stories. Hope somebody wants to write